Friday, 11 February 2011

Wow, February already...

...and mid-February at that. So it's been a bit of a poor showing from me on the blogging front lately, what can I say I've been a lazy bitch. Well actually that's not true at all, I've been far from a lazy bitch as I've been hitting the gym with renewed vigor of late, I'm averaging 6 classes a week for the most part and as a result my arms are like a couple of noodles by the end of the week rendering me incapable of typing.

To be honest, other than dragging my carcass to the odd body conditioning or Pilates class, I've been hibernating at home out of the frigid temperatures we've been experiencing and trying to figure out what to do with my life. I don't know about you, but I like to spend the weekend pondering the easy questions. Midlife crisis perhaps??? I am 40 this year after all.

Anyway as someone whose currently struggling a lot with where I belong - I think it's common among us ex-pats who have been away from the mother country for a while since my friend Nigel says he feels the same way, but when I'm in England I no longer feel like I belong, but in the US I don't feel like I'm American either* - I found this TED talk by Brene Brown to be very funny and inspiring, I hope you do too.

*I think part of this may have a lot to do with the fact that neither Nigel or I have managed ever been successful in finding long term relationships, a theory I am testing via eHarmony since the Creative Cutie, who I find myself very attracted to, no longer shows any interest. Sigh!! As my friend Megan says "I'm sure he's an ass anyway," so I've probably dodged a bullet, although unfortunately I can't help but have a few feelings of regret on that score. Crap!!


Kitty said...

hmf. I suppose Creative Cutie met someone? In which case, you shouldn't feel rejected. It's just dumb luck.

You're so good to be going to the gym! I wish I could be so motivated!!

I do feel that you'll find a Mr. Fish. The longer I'm around and the more stories I hear about people, the more I believe that things happen for certain reasons.

Anyway, I am much too tired to type anything of meaning right now. Will need to revisit you!

Amel said...

That's brilliant TED talk (and I got to exercise a little while listening to it ha ha...). I'm gonna share it in FB. :-D WOW! You've been doing great in your exercise regime. I haven't. Gotta get back in shape soon.

Sorry to hear about Creative Cutie. :-((( But anyway crossing my fingers for ya in terms of long term relationships!!!

fishwithoutbicycle said...

Hi Kitty,

I've no idea on the CC's status, to be honest a month can go by without so much of a glimpse of him since in my line of work we rarely cross paths with the creatives on the same account never mind those who don't. Anyway it is what it is. As for eHarmony I am trying to stick with it. It's only been a week and already I feel overwhelmed by the matches - who all seem to be significantly older than me for some reason, are all the men my age married - but I'm just going to take it slow and see what happens.

Hi Amel, nice to hear from you. Glad you enjoyed the TED Talk, I thought it was inspiring and funny and I could relate to a lot of what she said.

Take care ladies, Fish

Amel said...

Forgot to say that I can relate to the feeling of "you don't belong". I don't feel like I'm an Indonesian anymore (nor do I want to live there anymore), but I'll never be fully Finnish, either.

fishwithoutbicycle said...

Hi Amel,

The 'not belonging' thing is weird isn't it. It's not necessarily a bad feeling, it's just...well weird. I think if I moved back to England I wouldn't feel right there either. At least in New York I am surrounded by many other people in the same situation.

Cheers, Fish

Amel said...

Yeah, you're's not bad, but those who never moved to another place for a long time may not understand the weirdness of it he he...I can't imagine the feeling of those people who keep moving from one country to another every few years due to the parents' job or something like that.